
…really messing with my head. For one, while I know I’ve been taking a longer time to complete school, I’m still in it and I’ve found my stride to the point where I’m on track to graduate soon, but every time I try to do something outside of school, it gets shot down. For example, I’ve tried to enter relationships while I’ve been in college, and I’m told it’s a waste of my time and a distraction. Meanwhile, my sister’s been in a committed relationship since the second semester of freshman year.
Then I feel like my parents see my autism diagnosis, but they don’t affirm that I’m autistic. I’m told to make eye contact, quit using verbal tics, don’t disclose your diagnosis to employers when you apply for jobs, and it hurts a tremendous amount. I recently acquired a hidden disabilities sunflower lanyard and was met with indifference when I told my mom about it, when in actuality it’s a really cool thing that helps increase accessibility. I feel like I’m on an island, family-wise😞
Call the Bluff and tell them they are shitty people for doing that. Get a therapist, I use shunning to maintain control and telling family that 1. Caring about what other people think defines stupidity to me 2. When they do the shiz respond with “What are you contributing to my life” (Genuine question) then go “Please stop you are contributing nothing to my life with your rhetoric”