Smoke and remind myself of all the things I do/have done that past me prayed for. Ex- yes today was shit and I feel like I’ve done nothing good for myself but I’m in a healthy loving relationship, I’m clean and I do not fall for temptation, I have the job I spent 4 months trying to get the cert for and I passed the final test first try, I have money in my savings and I’m on good terms w both parents