
I don’t think it’s bad at all. I’ve also taken a million tests and I still feel like I’m just chasing symptoms. It’s fucking infuriating to scrape together the time and energy to subject yourself to the American medical system, just to find a dud. It feels like you were punished for doing the thing that everyone tells you will help. But anger is the proper response to injustice, you have a right to it imo
don't think of it as "caving," for starters. if it was bad enough that you sought help, you needed the help! as for being upset, it makes complete sense that you'd feel like your own time, but the doctors and other medical staff's job is to take the imaging, so you didn't waste their time.
‘Caved’ as in I was able to manage it (for years) up until that point, made the appt, it started to get better so I almost cancelled and was told to go anyways. But you’re right- I should change how I think. They just gave hope that there was a reason and fix for an issue only for imaging to determine ‘normal’
I know the carousal of insurance and money and referral and second opinions is a nightmare but don't be deterred from trying to find other healthcare providers who are willing to work with you to find a solution. a million times easier said than done, but I've heard so so so many cases where people didn't get the diagnosis they needed until like years into the process