
yes it does when i was 15 i tried to end it all, never saw myself making it past 18. Hated myself, who I was, how I was, what I looked like. I’m 23, finally on the right medication - do i still get sad as fuck sometimes and feels like only survival? yes but 70% of the time i would say life feels full of worth and purpose, and im living. it does. everyone always says it so it sounds cliche, but trust me - if you try and really want it to be better, it will get better ❤️
It does! 5 years ago I genuinely was ready, the scars on my arms only did so much so, I had texted hotlines when I felt the urge to cut deeper too, didn’t help any so I decided that was that, I had the letters written out, plan ready and set. And yet, when I finally went to do it, i hesitated. I thought about my friends living life and going on without me and I thought abt how I wouldn’t be there to enjoy it. - I suddenly realized, there was so much more life that had yet to be lived. I went
to my Dr, saw a psychiatrist then eventually went to therapy. I got diagnosed with depression and put on meds too. (It was so bad I couldn’t even be around knives or scissors) Now I’m 5 years SH free, full time job that pays GREAT. Graduated college, I have great friends, and a full career ahead of me. Whenever I start spiraling into old habits I catch myself and get out of the house. (I personally enjoy getting something sweet to drink like Starbucks, then going to Barnes & noble to pick out