
Well no not with that attitude you won’t. Wanting to hook up OR wanting to get married requires a willingness to be vulnerable, take risks, take rejection, learn about yourself and others and how to spot red flags better. Those are things you can absolutely learn to do but if you’re not willing to you’ll never get either of the things you say you want.
So it’s not the truth at all then—you just lied. If you’re refusing to do things to meet people who you could ask out or hook up with you’re not gonna meet people to date or hook up with. You gotta figure out other parts of your life, yourself, your friendships, and what’s holding you back and address those things FIRST before you even think about doing anything else. It’s a marathon not a sprint. Good luck OP.
As previous comments suggest, you should join a group environment that is a safe space for you to slowly open up with them whether it begins in person or starts online and leads to in person. Being reintroduced into society is not impossible. You can avoid large gatherings and still go outside.
You're a pitiful excuse for a grown person. With all that you're doing, you seem like you have no desire to be a better person. At this point in your life you do need to give up having anything with anyone until you decide you want to do better with yourself. Otherwise you'll make whomever's with you their life a living hell
Why are y'all still at me worked up? Y'all need to let that go. That's the all in your feels that I'm talking about. The difference between me and you is I can handle the truth no matter how it's delivered. The truth is the truth. If I had nickel for how many times I've read this in your feels nonsense. I'd be a billionaire