Dude do some spell check before posting something, it hurt to read this and make sense of it. Start looking up recipes for things you like and maybe even start practicing (by actually cooking), so that way you can at least survive. Have some basic meals that’s literally just 2-3 steps like a pbj sandwich or rice with eggs cereal with milk boiled eggs grilled cheese etc. start off with things that at the very least can help you survive don’t go for complex foods until you have more experience.