
I was 180 once and now teetering between 130 and 135… I still look at myself and believe i’m the same size as I was when I was heavier and freak out when I gain an extra pound above that. I truly think it’ll be a mental struggle the rest of my life to realize i am not the same weight as i once was. But keep working towards it! If you don’t see it, others will and you’ll feel it!
Just be confident, take pics of yourself without your shirt on, and then compare them when you lose more weight. You’ll notice a difference when you lose a lot of weight. And continue to workout and eat healthy, and do some of those like mewing exercises and the stuff that makes your face look more defined. Doing those will also allow you to see more of a difference.
i think loving yourself is a difficult journey and youve probably just gotten used to the opposite. it's not something that will just suddenly happen. you need to give yourself some grace and try to look outside yourself at your achievements and great qualities. rather than losing the weight in order to love yourself, think of it that you're losing the weight because you love yourself. being thinner doesn't guarantee self love.