Please stay. I just passed my 2 yr anniversary of my last attempt that landed me in a psych ward and looking at where I am now compared to then is such a great difference. I didn’t have God in my life then, but after that whole experience I found him again and life hasn’t been the same. Those feelings grow quieter. They might still come around, but not nearly as much or as aggressive. I’m going to pray for you right now. You got this! Stranger to stranger—you’re not alone.
Go to a church once or twice a month till you find your perfect one. Any church you go to you will feel his presence. How you feel mixed with his love and community creates such a strong wave of emotions that is indescribable. Even if you go just to get prayed over. It’s worth giving God another fighting chance to show you he is still here for you, but wants you to come to him. Go to him for strength and he will provide it. Philippians 4:6–7 (NLT)