I think that’s more trauma from abusive parents. The Bible literally says that sickness is not a punishment for sin so they weren’t actually operating from there. Although I am assuming this was warped Christianity. And no, it’s not your fault that you are sick. I pray you have found people who will confirm that.
There is a sect of Christianity that believes that conditions and diseases are as a result of your own sins, almost like a punishment, which is wild because that’s not biblical. These things happen because we live in a fallen world, but not as a punishment, it’s just the result of the place we live. I’m sorry that people have said those things, I hope you’re doing well
My sis had a bunch of chronic stuff her whole life. Sounds like your church screwed you over because there is a specific Bible verse where there is a blind man and people ask Jesus what he or his parents did to make him deserve blindness. Jesus said that he was blind so that God may use him for the world. Back to my sis, she died of cancer but was very religious. Her pain caused others to believe and that suffering strengthened my own faith
Never said it originated from Christianity. It’s in many religious texts from many religions. But that’s the point, God has always been here and different cultures experience and document him differently. Likewise truth is the truth no matter where you hear it. OP needs to be open minded and seek out her own connection with Christ. Drown out her friends, family, and other religious folks and just have a 1:1 conversation with God alone.
Putting this in scientific terms for you: even in modern psychology exposure therapy is a type of cognitive behavioral therapy. OP will never exist in a world where religion will take a backseat to her trauma. It’s literally everywhere, even places where you think it’s not. So avoidance isn’t a solution. Exposure and addressing the root cause is.
OP you should give it a shot. It can be as spiritual as you want it. You can even check in with God once per day and that’ll be fine. You may also learn some new things about your body. Like food sensitivities, or cravings caused by parasites. When I fasted (7 days) I learned that I crave sugar during stressful moments and that I had a ton of food related inflammation. I also gained unbelievable mental clarity.