
Turn to your support network. If you don’t have one, people who genuinely care for YOU and not your involvement in a specific group, find events around interests of yours, speak to a therapist (this is such a huge boon!! And if one doesn’t work, there are others!), and partake in self care, whether that means spending time playing games, going on hikes, lighting candles and relaxing, whatever that looks like to you. Ground yourself in what is around you and those that bring you comfort and joy.
These are all good things! I personally have been working out, biking, and working everyday to ease my mind and regain my confidence in myself. I am talking to a therapist at the moment and they are a Really good support team as well as my friends. I’ve been hanging out with the same guy every day and that’s all I need. I’ve gotten sober which is great and I’m actually able maintain a clean environment around my house! Very detailed answer btw! Thank you.
Just curious: you say you don’t believe in God but you blame him for your turmoil - adding obstacles to your life and destroying your relationships. How can something - you don’t believe to exist - impact your life so much? You’re being tested and you’re failing. You turn your back on him at your peak and wonder “why do I suffer.” Get back on the right path, restore your faith in God.