
Bro I’ve been through this before. Get help. Start therapy. And when you feel those urges wash your face with cold water. It doesn’t make you feel better but it can stop you from feeling worse. Listen to loud loud music and dance. It helps with distress tolerance. I know it sounds silly and stupid but I went to therapy and it really did help. Find a good therapist you click with that makes you feel heard and understood and know that the things you’re feeling are hard and heavy but it’s not wrong