
I’ve genuinely been alone and I know my suite mates don’t like me, I’ve been through a few suicide attempts, I’m trying to get help and have gotten some, and I have to be the bad guy to tell my suite mates our bathroom isn’t clean. It doesn’t help if you know someone that you want to be friends with, but they kind of just hangout with you in class and never outside of class, or they’re reluctant too. College is not for me I think…
I’m alone this Halloween too. My second one after having spent the last 16 years with my husband. We used to spend every Halloween at home in the bed or on the couch shoving our faces full of candy and watching scary movies or making treats of some kind. It was our lil tradition and I loved it more than anything. He died June 21, 2025. I miss him so fucking much. I’ve never been so alone and I’m so fucking sad. Sending you love.
i'm so so sorry for your loss, that sounds incredibly difficult. i hope maybe you could find some comfort in the legend that the veil between the worlds is thinnest on halloween night, and his presence is close, but it definitely doesn't make you less lonely. i hope you can find a way to honor his memory and feel some kind of joy in that. sending love 🫂