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Asexual/Aromantic 1d
I feel like conceptually I want to have sex. Or want to want to. But in actuality makes me deeply uncomfortable. PTSD and experiences don’t help. My last gf had me convinced I needed to “learn to enjoy it” which… I think I can call it assault. Anyways…
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Anonymous 1d

I’ll Joel it on occasion but feel ashamed of myself and disgusted for doing it. I didn’t grow up religious or anything either, probably a rather untalked about or maybe even sex positive household, so I don’t think that’s the main reason. Still though. Even when it’s gotten to that point I’ve enjoyed the pleasure it brings sure, but there’s absolutely no mental Pleasure to go along with it. There’s the initial “pleasure” but for the most part i feel like I’m pretending to be someone in porno…

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 1d

In order to get it over with faster. It’s hard to fake cum as a guy. But I’ve gotten pretty good at it. Idk. There’s an aspect of arousal that my body for sure reacts to, but as soon as my brain realizes what is happening, I want it to stop. I don’t know how to explain it and idk if yall will get it but. Can’t afford therapy so… what’s wrong with me?

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