I get that. We all have wants and desires, that’s part of being human. Try to make a conscious effort though to ask him what it is what he wants for you. There have been so many things in life that I thought I wanted and prayed so hard for but didn’t get, and it’s only years later that I now see why the answer had to be no before.
To be fair, we are allowed and even asked to come to God in prayer with requests. Jesus says we have not because we ask not, meaning he wants us to ask. You could ask for more people to talk to, and thank Him for anyone in your life you have now (or for the people He’s going to send your way). Either way, He’s just glad to hear from you. Also, whoever you open up to might see you differently, but that’s not necessarily a bad thing. Maybe they need someone too, and you’ll open that door