Imma tap the sign: Almost every guy wants a relationship. He may not be in a hurry to get there, but very few of us would throw away the perfect woman just so we can die single. That’s not the variable and never was. But one of the main points of dating is to learn about people and try them out and decide WHO you want a serious relationship with. THAT’s the variable. Don’t look for a guy who wants a relationship. Look for a guy who wants one with YOU (& vice versa)
I really do but my last attempt at one, who surely has zero conflict of interest in the matter, told me I have major issues with women. I don’t want to write that off so the reasonable thing to do (joke) is to remain embroiled in a constant cycle of self-criticism and self-reflection because I’m deeply terrified of repeating that dynamic
That also means stop torturing yourself so much. Commitment is a big commitment (to guys I mean; we’re much more replaceable than you so we have to make commitments carefully). The odds are always gonna be against you and a given other person being right for each other. But you can help yourself by adopting more of a growth mindset. Play to your strengths and think about why people should want to date you, instead of dowsing for a mostly imaginary distinction of men who want to date