Just because an employer tells you to apply for the job doesn’t mean ur automatically gonna get it. Thats just life. Even if you yearn and still don’t earn, that just means she wasn’t the one for you. We as men have this habit of getting mad whenever the women YOU want doesn’t want you. You can’t force someone to like you. So yeah if you aren’t her type yearning wont work. Grass is green, keep ur head up and move to the next