Anonymous OP 1d

We told each other about ourselves, where we worked, the things we liked, and she even felt comfortable bringing up her past traumas. She told me i made her feel safe in a way that no one else did to be herself and share all of those wonderful amazing things that I got to see in those texts, and hear in the calls. It became the most amazing thing that i would look forward to after work, hearing her voice or reading a text from her. Never have I ever met such a unique girl, nor did i ever dare to

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Anonymous OP 1d

dare to believe that someone so emotionally intelligent, sweet, caring, trusting, and wonderful would ever want to spend time talking for hours with me, someone too shy to ever think that i could be in a relationship. Through all the things i have been in my life, she is the one thing that I could have never ever predicted, planned for, or even imagined existed in such a shallow places like this world at my age. I loved hearing how special she thought those little things about me were.

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Anonymous OP 1d

And thats where i need your help. I feel horrible. I was sort of distant today, listening to her talk, and she noticed. She texted me that she couldnt see one moment where i flirted with her the way i had in days prior. That i seemed like there was something on my mind. And i broke, and told her. I told her I couldnt see it, couldnt feel the attraction the same way that i did. and it tore me apart. It tore me to pieces. She is the most special person i have ever spoken to and i cant get over

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Anonymous OP 1d

Over something as nonsensical and shallow as an appearance. She made me feel hopeful that i wouldnt go through this life alone, gave me joy in being able to look forward to someone at the end of my shift at work. Made me feel seen and safe and valued in a way that I dont think i will ever ever find with another person in my life. Just for me to get hung up over the way she looked, and I have been praying so hard that God will help me see past it, because this girl deserves the world. The world.

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Anonymous OP 1d

I gave her the honesty of how i felt, rather than staying distant and hiding and lying to her. It shook me up real good. It made me feel awful. Do i look the best? No. And i know exactly how it feels to recieve that judgement, and it made it hurt all the worse. I want God above to make sure this girl knows how amazing she is, how much light she brought to me, even if for a week and a half. I feel so awful and i need anyone’s advice in what to do. Im sorry to her and to you all because I know it

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Anonymous OP 1d

Was a really shallow, surface level, trivial thing. But it made everything feel different. And It hurt the both of us. And i feel so bad. They dont make special people like her anymore. I just wanted the chance to connect and find something real with someone, and ended up sounding like the same people that im afraid will throw me away for the same reason. I can’t come to terms with it. She deserved so much better, and i feel like a failure for not being man enough to cherish her completely.

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Anonymous OP 1d

You can’t force physical attraction, trying to would only have made it more difficult on you both. Sometimes we form the most beautiful bonds with people but for whatever reason they don’t last. Think of the time you got to know her as a gift. Trying to grab more when you were never ment to will damage you both.

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Anonymous #2 20h

Thank you. Im hoping she sees it that way too. She gets so anxious when she can tell something is off. I never wanted to hurt her. I never ever want anyone to hurt her.

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