I remember being really scared of the husband of my daycare lady. Whenever he came home from work I remember hiding from him and the other adults thought it was cute and laughed. I remember him telling me that he wanted to pin or nail me against a wall and kiss me? I feel like he said something weird like that once in front of her and she laughed it off. It could have been a dream, but I was really young so I don’t know how I could have concocted that up. I still don’t know if it was real or not

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Did you know that if you were ever spanked as a child it can result in the same trauma as an SA? the complete loss of bodily autonomy and the violation of being so out of control creates a lasting trauma the body remembers

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I feel like I was but it didn’t really hit me until I got older. Every time I tried to remember it I kinda passed it off as just some really fucked up dream, but I could remember like very specific details about it.

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I have zero recollection of SA specifically but I recall having constant UTIs and vaginal pain around age 5 ish, I was VERY hypersexual way before I should’ve known about any of that, and my dad has always made weird comments on my weight, butt, hips, chest, etc. ever since I started puberty. It’s just a very heavy gut feeling, but I can’t prove it :/ I’m also not sure I want to be able to prove it because that would mean remembering it

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When I was little (about 5-7 years old) I had a sleepover with one of my friends from school at a hotel, and his mom made us take a bath together naked and I remember feeling uncomfortable about it but she insisted it was alright, and she just watched us the whole time saying she needed to keep an eye on me. She also “helped me” dry off with a towel, at this age I knew how to bathe myself and wash/dry myself. I never really told anyone but I definitely think it messed me up in some way

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For me it feels like a lucid dream. I was four staying at my aunts (she was 16). Her younger brother (14) kept bringing me into his room and made me watch tv while yk. And I would keep getting up to leave and then he would keep bringing me back . I remember the song that played and everything. Idk if this happened so I never spoke up

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I have a distinct memory of it but my brain keeps telling me I made it up and the other part says no you’re not

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I always wonder if something happened with my dad that I don’t remember bc why else do I just like naturally hate him so much there must be something repressed, and there’s enough not repressed to support the theory

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Yess! I’ve always felt this. And to be fair I had weird sexual experiences when I was like 7 years old because of a neighbor, but I didn’t see it as wrong at the time and I wonder if it’s bc it happened to me earlier

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when i was 14 my uncle came to live with us for a while because he and his girlfriend broke up. around that time i started having horrific nightmares of him comping into my room and raping me. i don’t know what started it. it physically could not have happened the way it happened in those dreams. we were close before. but now there’s something in the back of my mind that makes me wonder if it did happen, just when i was very young and i pushed it out of my mind

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Yes!! I remember feeling uncomfortable around types of men that fit a certain profile at a young age… even passing them in public made me uncomfortable, idk why.. and I can’t even think of who could’ve done something….. but also, I remember when I was 8, I slept over at a family friend’s place (a girl friend and an older sister) and she suggested we played “house” I think I was like… 7? She was 8 maybe. Maybe younger… I remember her wanting to play the father (and me the mother) and she wanted

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