
I was diagnosed when I was little, so I luckily never needed to figure it out from scratch, but having a sense of why you are the ways that you are is a lot harder than applying a label to it. It can help if you take therapy to learn how it impacts you or if you read a lot about autism from professionals/fellow autistics you can figure out what aspects of it apply to you and what parts of this originate from your brain being wired differently. Everyone is an individual though and its a spectrum
Genuinely, knowing all the intellectual answers did nothing for me. Being validated by someone I looked up to who also has the same diagnosis and getting to talk about it together helped 1000000x more. (Needing to know why can be a need to process things emotionally. Validation and acceptance does that.)