
I was this way and didn’t do anything till I turned 21. The first time definitely wasn’t as anxiety filled as we build it up to be. I did freak the guy out a second because I had to take few deep breaths before I relaxed enough for him to slid in. He just went “ whoa you did it.” Later on it made me chuckle. My partner now feels my sexual kinks are almost my tism focused lol 😂. It’s probably true.