Autistic girl community on Yik Yak | “gaming tonight?” i just got done screaming and crying and wailing and i feel empty and can’t talk well and i feel like u guys would get along just fine w/out me, i am the disposable element in this 3-person friend group of two married ppl and me so like.

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Autistic girl community 7w

“gaming tonight?” i just got done screaming and crying and wailing and i feel empty and can’t talk well and i feel like u guys would get along just fine w/out me, i am the disposable element in this 3-person friend group of two married ppl and me so like.

Anonymous 7w

it’s so fucking difficult to name that yes i am jealous of them, yes i am insecure, yes i love them, yes there is a child inside of me who is still living in the face of being abandoned time and time again by my family and now i feel each loss like i’ve been shot at point blank and search for the warning signs everywhere

Anonymous 7w

i dont want and dont need them constantly checking on me i just like. im in agony and this is the issue i have. i literally got told by my pcp after my suicide attempt “You’re dangerous because you could be dying on the inside and no one around you would know.” 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 it feels like fucking agony

Anonymous

OP 7w

this post doesnt make a lot of sense w/out context i cant lie chat im just in a bad place rn and i need somewhere to exist that’s not just entirely in my own head

Anonymous

OP 7w

i want to want to play video games and then im like socializing just sounds so hard rn but then what if i get in the round and then i like it and that’s what i need to be doing to stave off the depression versus I feel bad. I feel awful I don’t want to talk to people who are going to inevitably break into some convo checking on one another or talking ab marriage shit while I feel like my spirit is dying in my chest

Anonymous

OP 7w

“xyz are you okay?” after they’ve just been a lil quiet OH MY GOD I LOVE THAT YOU GUYS LOVE EACH OTHER I WANT THIS FOR YOU I KNOW YOU’VE EARNED IT I JUST WANT TO STOP BEING A THIRD WHEEL 😭😭 I JUST WANT TO STOP THIS CYCLE THAT HAS BEEN GOING SINCE I WAS A CHILD OF THE PEOPLE ARUND ME ALL HAVE THEIR PEOPLE AND I AM A FILLER CHARACTER

Anonymous

OP 7w

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THE ONE WHO LITERALLY ASKED IF WE WANTED TO PLAY THE GAME STARTED STREAMING A GAME *AFTER*I FINALLY REPLIED AFTER SMOKING TO CUT THE DEPRESSION A LITTLE LIKE SURE ILL JUST B A LITTLE LOW ENERGY AND HIS WIFE WAS LIKE that’s ok! LIKE HE STARTED STREAMING AN ENTIRELY DIFFERENT GAME AND GHOSTED THAT CONVO???? im so hurt what the fuck. his wife is in the stream too and neither of them bothered to say anything??? 😭😭😭

Anonymous

OP 7w

im crashing out a little