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Chronic Illness 1w
one of the worst parts about flare ups is the mental health drops. idk if this is allowed, im sorry if its not, but im gonna vent in the comments, if that’s ok. i just dont know who else to talk to.
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Anonymous 1w

It absolutely sucks. Inflammation produces cytokines which affect dopamine and serotonin. The fatigue and pain doesn’t help either. Do you have a therapist you can talk to?

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Anonymous 1w

i genuinely don’t know how i’m supposed to live like this. i’m supposed to graduate college in a couple months. i don’t know how im supposed to work like this, with my hip being a damn timebomb. i can’t get the medication i need because im trans, and my dad refuses to update my name on his insurance. relying on them for support is also tricky for that reason.

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 1w

i’ve had such a deep fucking hunger for independence since i was young, and now that the times coming to fly or die, i don’t know how to get off the runway. there’s so much I need to do, but right now, all i can think about is wanting the pain to stop. i find so much comfort in the thought of dying because i know then, i won’t have to feel it anymore, won’t have to worry about rent, or work, or weighing down my loved ones. every time my body betrays me, i start thinking about it again.

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 1w

i don’t think i’d actually do anything. i wouldn’t want to hurt my girlfriend, my friends need me to help with rent, ive got a cat who needs me. but shit man. i don’t think i’d mind getting hit by a car right about now.

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