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i think i actually have ptsd from the summer i had an ng tube and enteral nutrition. i tried to eat a frozen yogurt that tasted too similar today and i started having flashbacks and i feel panicky for no reason
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Anonymous 2w

I have gastroparesis and the thought of a tube scares me so much that I’ll literally do anything to avoid it. I can understand it being traumatizing and I hope you’re able to work through it. It’s hard not knowing who to talk to about these kind of things, I’m glad Mother_Russia is here to help a bit. They’re great, love u mother russia!!!

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Anonymous 2w

That’s extremely valid. I got ptsd from having a tube through my nose just for 48 hours, I can’t imagine what that must have been like for every time you want to eat for a full summer.

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Anonymous replying to -> mother_russia 2w

I’m sorry you’re going through that and it’s rough to recover from. Do you have a therapist or people around you that could help you find ways to cope with it?

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Anonymous replying to -> mother_russia 2w

i only had a tube for 3 days until i told them to take it out or i’d take it out myself, so for the rest of the summer i just had to exclusively drink feeding tube formula so i could give my guts a rest. i don’t have a therapist rn bc mine dumped me for being too complex, and i can’t afford a new one. my chronically friends mostly have gp and are trying to get feeding tubes so not really the people to talk to about it yk. but i mostly do fine, its been months since i was last triggered

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 2w

before this ofc. it was 6 years ago so i think being triggered a couple times a year is a reasonable level and not too debilitating?

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 2w

That’s totally understandable. Do you have many tools to help you at least when you know you’ll have to see a trigger or after a panic attack has started?

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Anonymous replying to -> mother_russia 2w

kind of? i have a small freezable weighted blanket to calm my vagus nerve when i get home but in the moment i kind of default to dissociating

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 2w

Alright then maybe I could help by sharing what helped me cope with similar ptsd symptoms? Ultimately that was the only truly helpful thing therapy had taught me for ptsd.

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Anonymous replying to -> mother_russia 2w

i’d appreciate it! my therapist was out of her depth so i’m willing to try anything that might be useful

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 2w

Alrighty! I’ll come back tomorrow with a list!

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 2w

Okay so here are some tools to maybe help when you have already been triggered: 1. If your panic attacks come with hyperventilation or you get lightheaded during them, use a soft breatheable cloth to hold over your mouth. I use fuzzy throw blankets or my long sleeves typically. It helps force your body to breathe normally and it’s comforting to remember nothing is in your nose.

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 2w

2. Spicy foods, extreme mint, or really sour foods/candies can help to immediately ground your brain to what’s happening in the moment. It just makes your brain go “wtf” and it’s something easy to carry around with you just in case! 3. Keeping comfort foods/smells/movies/etc. around so that coming down from the panic is easier. Just being kind to yourself and giving yourself a soft place to land.

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 2w

4. Counting numbers out of order, trying to memorize long sequences of numbers, trying to do long division or multiplication, etc. are all helpful to activate a different part of your brain so are great things to start doing if you feel the panic rising (especially if you’re saying it out loud or have a person you repeat after). 5. I personally found that loud music and drawing on myself was really helpful to drown out the stress and anxiety

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 2w

6. Saying out loud (while under a weighted blanket or really comfortable somewhere) that you are okay, you are at (address), you are wearing (whatever), etc. and just keep naming things currently happening rather than what your brain is telling you is happening. This with self soothing like crossed arms and tapping on each shoulder rhythmically. (If you are going to do this, try tapping yourself at other times when you are safe and happy to help your brain pavlov it with joy and safety)

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 2w

You could try to do exposure therapy but you would want to do individual research on how to safely do exposure therapy to try to reduce triggers, I had to do that because my triggers were things I couldn’t avoid, but it’s not a route you have to go down.

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