I have gastroparesis and the thought of a tube scares me so much that I’ll literally do anything to avoid it. I can understand it being traumatizing and I hope you’re able to work through it. It’s hard not knowing who to talk to about these kind of things, I’m glad Mother_Russia is here to help a bit. They’re great, love u mother russia!!!
i only had a tube for 3 days until i told them to take it out or i’d take it out myself, so for the rest of the summer i just had to exclusively drink feeding tube formula so i could give my guts a rest. i don’t have a therapist rn bc mine dumped me for being too complex, and i can’t afford a new one. my chronically friends mostly have gp and are trying to get feeding tubes so not really the people to talk to about it yk. but i mostly do fine, its been months since i was last triggered
Okay so here are some tools to maybe help when you have already been triggered: 1. If your panic attacks come with hyperventilation or you get lightheaded during them, use a soft breatheable cloth to hold over your mouth. I use fuzzy throw blankets or my long sleeves typically. It helps force your body to breathe normally and it’s comforting to remember nothing is in your nose.
2. Spicy foods, extreme mint, or really sour foods/candies can help to immediately ground your brain to what’s happening in the moment. It just makes your brain go “wtf” and it’s something easy to carry around with you just in case! 3. Keeping comfort foods/smells/movies/etc. around so that coming down from the panic is easier. Just being kind to yourself and giving yourself a soft place to land.
4. Counting numbers out of order, trying to memorize long sequences of numbers, trying to do long division or multiplication, etc. are all helpful to activate a different part of your brain so are great things to start doing if you feel the panic rising (especially if you’re saying it out loud or have a person you repeat after). 5. I personally found that loud music and drawing on myself was really helpful to drown out the stress and anxiety
6. Saying out loud (while under a weighted blanket or really comfortable somewhere) that you are okay, you are at (address), you are wearing (whatever), etc. and just keep naming things currently happening rather than what your brain is telling you is happening. This with self soothing like crossed arms and tapping on each shoulder rhythmically. (If you are going to do this, try tapping yourself at other times when you are safe and happy to help your brain pavlov it with joy and safety)