It’s just this constant back and forth between “oof ouch I can do fuck all right now because I’m so tired and my joints hurt really badly” and “I feel fine right now. Was that fatigue and pain really as bad as I thought it was? Surely if it was that bad, doctors would’ve diagnosed SOMETHING by now. Maybe I need to do some self reflection to figure out if I can trust my perception of my senses, maybe it really is not that bad. Maybe I’m just making a mountain out of a molehill, making a huge-