Anonymous OP 5w

i have so many abilities that could help people i just can’t make it happen by myself and i never thought this would be my reality. i thought i was going to be a dr and now being a hairstylist seems like an unattainable goal even tho i’m literally licensed. i’ll never give up but fuck this is hard

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Anonymous OP 5w

i try to remember that i’ve come a long way. at one point i was too weak to bush my teeth manually or walk. but barely being able to do anything doesn’t get you far under capitalism. your worth is your productivity and i need more help than i can give. i wanted to volunteer to give free haircuts to those in need but turns out i’m the one in need

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Anonymous #2 5w

i don’t have the energy to work or engage in my my passions or hobbies right now but i appreciate you. i’m just holding out hope that i’m going to continue to improve physically after going downhill for a number of years. my needs are taken care of right now which i’m extremely grateful for. i just dream of a relationship and it’s hard to picture anyone wanting to be in a relationship w someone w no job relying on other people, who isn’t at least actively trying to get a job.

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Anonymous #2 5w

i’m just so tired in every sense of the word. everything in me wants to give up but i know deep down that’s not what i want. i started working at 14 and i’ve just been fighting for so long. i thought i would be farther along by this point. people my age have families and houses and i’m being selfish but i can’t help but want a relationship so incredibly badly. sorry for complaining but i’m having a rough time coming to terms w my reality

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Anonymous OP 5w

Why is a relationship selfish

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Anonymous #2 5w

most people can contribute financially in a relationship and want the same out of their partner. i make great partner and i can add a lot to someone’s life but financially i can’t add anything. most people don’t want a partner that requires financial support so it feels selfish to still want a relationship knowing i can’t contribute in that way. i’m literally living w my ex bc he’s supporting me financially and it feels like i have way too much baggage.

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Anonymous #2 5w

i don’t want to be financially dependent on anyone but i want a husband so incredibly badly

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Anonymous OP 5w

You’re a person not a bank account, wanting companionship is not selfish. The only selfish thing, is to hurt yourself. Because it prevents other seeing the best you, Ik corny. But dude, you need a break and a new way of going through life. Maybe figure some things out, and Ik it sounds impossible but you have to. Bc rn your just hurting yourself and spiraling

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Anonymous #2 5w

i appreciate you taking the time to share your thoughts. it means a lot to get outside perspective. i will never stop trying to achieve my goals. i met someone i really like and idk how i’m gonna make it work but all i know is i’m going to be honest w them and try my hardest

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Anonymous OP 5w

I’m not sure what your financial situation is, but I think you may need to see a therapist. I mean that in the kindest way possible. I see one and it really helps me get through my shit and burnout, work on ways to be better. And Ik money will always be tight. But you won’t feel better unless you change something, I think therapy may help with that. Your mental health is your top priority bc life is miserable if you feel miserable

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