If I’m being completely honest, I just started here and I can’t relate, at least not yet, but remember that you aren’t chained to school. I think even a life as a “failure” is better than no life at all because when you give up needing to be successful, you can enjoy and appreciate the things you actually love. You can enjoy waking up to your favorite music and doing something you like, even if it’s just hobbies. The ultimatum here shouldn’t be dropping life, it should be dropping school
Ah I see. That’s pretty tough. Honestly, I kind of had a similar experience not too long ago and one of my siblings struggles with not feeling enough too, or I guess, they feel like they’re enough now, but it’s EXHAUSTING being enough. You should talk to someone who cares about you about this or free counseling here. TRUST me they have good advice and it’s one of those things you gotta actually do and do what they tell you for a while before you can say that it’s not working. Tell me how it goes