Anonymous #1 19h

Like I don’t want to gain the weight back, and weight was becoming an issue. But like I’m losing my body and for what? I feel no difference

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Anonymous OP 19h

fr. I wouldn’t mind gaining back just a little in the right places lol, but it’s not as if I would have the option to choose where new adipose tissue is stored anyway ugh, “losing my body” is so spot-on. it’s lowkey a relief just to see someone else talk about it like this 🥲 people kept congratulating me over the weight loss but in truth it hasn’t been a success, or anything worth celebrating

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Anonymous #1 18h

Honestly, I’ve never gotten more attention or compliments on how I look than I am right now. And I just feel like worse shit than before. Just smaller. I always knew I was treated differently for being bigger, but it still sucks to see the opposite end. And nobody takes any of the other health stuff seriously so they think I did it all for looks.

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Anonymous #2 16h

strong muscles means more separation between the bones and that keeps your cartilage viable so you don’t feel pain, if you would have kept the weight on it just speeds up how fast your cartilage grinds down into nothing, it’s like walking vs running to the inevitable, having weight is like you’re running to it and no weight is like you’re just walking to it so less weight keeps your joint in better condition

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Anonymous #2 16h

so focus on muscle growth around where the areas are that hurt and the surrounding area and don’t forget to stretch and it’ll help solve the issue you have because if your muscles aren’t strong in that area then your bones will just keep squeezing the cartilage

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Anonymous #2 16h

I mean yeah I go to the gym and do physical therapy 3 - 5 time a week. The meds were supposed to be a last resort

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Anonymous OP 9h

this is difficult to put into words, but I used to get Constantly sexually harassed in public when I was bigger, and what I realize now is that the reason it was such a dehumanizing type of attention (not just being approached flirtatiously, but having strangers say vile shit to me, put hands on me, moan at me, follow me in cars on the street) was bc they saw me as a type of woman they were only “attracted to” in a way where dating me would never cross their mind

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Anonymous OP 9h

a particular type of woman who they could openly take out sexual aggression on without that making them feel like a bad person, because it’s so normalized to not actually view fat women as fully human cause I don’t get treated like that anymore. when I get hit on now, the tone is different. I think that’s the part that horrifies me the most

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Anonymous OP 9h

hey, no worries if you don’t feel like getting into it ofc, but if you don’t mind me asking—any chance you have rheumatoid / idiopathic arthritis? just sounds like our situations have been pretty similar so I’m curious if your joint pain has the same root cause as mine

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Anonymous OP 8h

the meds make the journey easier but the muscle growth is the hard work, it’s what they tell people who have joint pain, i’m just the middle man but the science of it makes sense

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Anonymous #1 1h

I have rheumatoid arthritis yeah!

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Anonymous OP 53m

yoooooo I almost never meet other people with RA, much less people who know what it’s like to deal with that And fatphobia And have complicated feelings about weight loss!! what’re the chances, omg thanks for chatting with me about this stuff. not to be dramatic but I legit feel a little less alone cause of it 🖤

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