Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t want to get up and throw my trash out

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Anonymous OP 11w

Well might as well. Am so comfortable

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Anonymous OP 11w

Crappy thing to eat

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Anonymous OP 11w

I’m lazy. Need to take a shower

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Anonymous OP 11w

Will do it tomorrow

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Anonymous OP 11w

Probably not going to do anything tonight if I’m being honest with myself

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Anonymous OP 11w

I open my mouth to m much

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Anonymous OP 11w

Gosh I can’t stay awake for my life

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Anonymous OP 11w

Keep falling asleep

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Anonymous OP 11w

I could cry if the tears would come or idk

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Anonymous OP 11w

My butt hurts

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t want to be alive. I feel hurt. I don’t understand stuff very well. I don’t think I’d feel very good if I did I want to go home

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Anonymous OP 11w

Why are people so weird

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Anonymous OP 11w

What are they doing

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Anonymous OP 11w

I’m tired

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Anonymous OP 11w

Everything hurts

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Anonymous OP 11w

I had this dream last night that

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Anonymous OP 11w

This thing was very flimsy in my hand(s)

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Anonymous OP 11w

Gosh 🙈

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Anonymous OP 11w

And it was almost melting or turning into paper or idk something even flimsier than paper

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Anonymous OP 11w

😭😔

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t want to continue I don’t know how to

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t understand why this is important

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Anonymous OP 11w

Ow

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Anonymous OP 11w

Why do people want to hurt me

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Anonymous OP 11w

Really good tbh I loved it wish I could do another 12 hours

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Can’t stop thinking about how good and how I want to go back

1

Anonymous OP 11w

What do I do to

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Anonymous OP 11w

Sigh

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Anonymous OP 11w

What should I do

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Anonymous OP 11w

Hate having people near me

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Anonymous OP 11w

Feels better somehow when it’s not on that flimsy thing

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Ducking ow man. I don’t understand why that matters so much

1

Anonymous OP 11w

What am I even worried about. I don’t have to do anything

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Anonymous OP 11w

Sigh just relax and watch

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Anonymous OP 11w

What was I just thinking about

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Anonymous OP 11w

Besides my ass killing me. Hard to even think

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Honestly it feels better rn than it did but it still kind of hurts. Anyway

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Anonymous OP 11w

Why would you punish somebody for that if you were allowing them to… do so I guess it’s not supposed to make sense really

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Hm. I wonder

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Anonymous OP 11w

🫂

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Anonymous OP 11w

All okay

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Anonymous OP 11w

Here we go sigh

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Anonymous OP 11w

Sigh

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Anonymous OP 11w

I wish…

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Anonymous OP 11w

I’m kind of dumb it’s sad

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I still don’t understand the butt physics going on there but

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Anonymous OP 11w

Sigh

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Anonymous OP 11w

Wow

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Anonymous OP 11w

What do

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Anonymous OP 11w

Do what makes sense

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Anonymous OP 11w

Don’t be shy

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Anonymous OP 11w

Wish I could be okay all the time

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Anonymous OP 11w

Frankly

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Anonymous OP 11w

Very

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Anonymous OP 11w

Just relax okay

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Anonymous OP 11w

Really. Just relax. I have you

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Anonymous OP 11w

Wonder about stuff

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Anonymous OP 11w

Don’t know what to think

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Anonymous OP 11w

Don’t think is angry at me. Maybe disappointed. Uhm I still don’t think or feel like I can do what wants me to do

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Anonymous OP 11w

Kind of weird how… works Kind of embarrassing

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Anonymous OP 11w

Want to die

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Anonymous OP 11w

I’m so …

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Anonymous OP 11w

Not good at this

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Anonymous OP 11w

And idky really or what to make of it

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t understand myself or the way I feel about things

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t like the idea of what I’m kind of doing here. You almost couldn’t come up with a more, unsettling for me

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Anonymous OP 11w

I want to lay down

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Anonymous OP 11w

Gosh sit here and talk 😌 have a nice calm evening

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t know how to do that I don’t know if I can

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Anonymous OP 11w

And I don’t know how to, do the opposite either

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Okay well. Just, no more really hard stuff please

1

Anonymous OP 11w

It’s so confusing to me. Hard to understand even why this stuff is so hard. Seems to me it’s not for others

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Anonymous OP 11w

Wouldn’t say good stuff about me

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Anonymous OP 11w

Ashamed

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Anonymous OP 11w

Wonder what Clara is doing these days, what her husband does

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Anonymous OP 11w

Sigh

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Anonymous OP 11w

Eh idrc or want to know, kind of curious what he does though or what she does

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Anonymous OP 11w

Uhm

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Anonymous OP 11w

What else is there to talk about. Gonna take a nap

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Anonymous OP 11w

It will be glorious

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Anonymous OP 11w

I just can’t

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Anonymous OP 11w

It’s not possible. I’m upset with my costume kind of

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I mean I love it but

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Anonymous OP 11w

That doesn’t mean it’s well suited or functional for anything

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Anonymous OP 11w

I’m tired

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Anonymous OP 11w

What was this

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t understand why I agreed to this. It feels so wasteful and roundabout

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Anonymous OP 11w

I’m so ashamed of how terrible

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Anonymous OP 11w

I can’t do this

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Anonymous OP 11w

Please let me go home and just get it explained to me

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Anonymous OP 11w

Or not

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Anonymous OP 11w

Idewk

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Anonymous OP 11w

Gosh don’t show me. That silly you’ve misunderstood me thing gosh. Why even act surprised. What else are people supposed to think

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Anonymous OP 11w

What a nightmare. So many humans experience it

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Anonymous OP 11w

I can’t sit in this

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Anonymous OP 11w

Is this guy actually going to tell people to buy private credit after telling people to short oil earlier this week. Bro

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Anonymous OP 11w

I’m such a loser

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Anonymous OP 11w

Why is this even important to me.

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Anonymous OP 11w

I went to go pee after sleeping for a really long time and I gues like idk, some dried cum had really clogged stuff up because I’ve never had a pee like that where it hurt that bad and like I could feel it Like nothing was coming out for the 1st second even though I could feel the pee flowing and then the pressure I guess did it’s thing and I guess the clog shot out Some fucking goo hanging off when I went to go check wtf happened Gross ik 😐

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Anonymous OP 11w

Sigh. I’m not a good person

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Anonymous OP 11w

I couldn’t give myself stuff or allow myself anything like that even if…

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Anonymous OP 11w

Even if… I’ll come back

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Anonymous OP 11w

But I guess the point is, I can’t imagine a situation where I see myself as good enough or deserving of any kind of affection or interpersonal relationship

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Anonymous OP 11w

Even if I did everything I could possibly do to improve myself realistically. I’d still be me and what my history is and how I look physically with my face and the same height

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Anonymous OP 11w

And I’d still have my personality

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Anonymous OP 11w

And uhm I just don’t deserve to win anything in comparison to everyone else out there

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t understand how it’s possible to have self love in the face of that I guess maybe I understand how it’s possible but I don’t believe I can necessarily be deserving of it. Idk what I believe really

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Anonymous OP 11w

Sigh

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Anonymous OP 11w

Can someone rub my head

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Anonymous OP 11w

Sigh echostar

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Anonymous OP 11w

Liquidia

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Anonymous OP 11w

Optics

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Anonymous OP 11w

The hottest new AI trade momentum darling huh 🫤, 800 G / 1.6 T transceivers that are domestically manufactured, vertically integrated

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Anonymous OP 11w

So the annoying data center they built in your community that sends out that incessant non stop humming sound that keeps you awake at night with the noise of it’s massive fleet of cooling fans that never stop can keep driving your electricity costs up, taking water from your reservoirs, and burning methane gas into your air and have it’s fiber optic communications infrastructure cuz copper isn’t fast enough when you need thousands of GPU’s talking to each other at blistering speeds

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Anonymous OP 11w

Also can’t handle the heat or signal loss I guess huh

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Anonymous OP 11w

I mean, I’m just joking. I totally support them building that shit

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Anonymous OP 11w

If we don’t do it, somebody else like China or Europe or India will and all the economic consequences will go to them not us

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Anonymous OP 11w

And there will be a lot more to worry about besides just electricity costs and water and clean air / slightly dirtier air Trump administrations announced during the state of the union some bill that’s supposed to tell hyperscalers they have to pay for their energy or source it seperately from residential utilities providers. Supposed to keep the cost of electricity down for Americans. Idk the details or whether it will work or what the situation is with that but yeah. Energy huh 🫤

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Anonymous OP 11w

XLE, RSPG

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Anonymous OP 11w

Fuck me tf am I talking about. Shutup loser

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Anonymous OP 11w

I slept so much this week

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Anonymous OP 11w

Sleeping like over 15 hours on some weekend days

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Anonymous OP 11w

Maybe over 18 or 20, idrk

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Anonymous OP 11w

Probably more like, 20 hours over 32 hours spent sleeping idrk Anyway What else is there to talk about QURE ripped 100 % , 50 - 60 % after hours on the news that Prasad was leaving CBER / FDA

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Anonymous OP 11w

CLPT, RGNX, CAPR, SRPT, comoanies he clashed with all enjoyed some interesting after hours, (or regular hours, somebody always knows, WSJ leaked it to somebody, somebody knew ahead of time somehow) NTLA didn’t move

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Anonymous OP 11w

QURE still has some serious problems though doesn’t it…

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Anonymous OP 11w

CLPT maybe 1 of the most justified I guess idk. Arguably… maybe… who knows

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Anonymous OP 11w

Oh no, RGNX has real problems

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Anonymous OP 11w

Oh yeah REPL probably moved too

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Anonymous OP 11w

Huh………

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Anonymous OP 11w

Groannnn

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Anonymous OP 11w

Dollar rallied since the Iran stuff began

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Anonymous OP 11w

Thing is like… I need more leverage cuz this is just not doing it for me

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Anonymous OP 11w

Uhm

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Anonymous OP 11w

Crude is just… insane BWET

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Anonymous OP 11w

Probably arguably the most interesting trade in the market to me rn. Just so cool to me

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Anonymous OP 11w

Or I suppose you could just buy VLCC futures contracts instead of having 10 % Suezmax futures contract exposure What are the 2 routes called TD3C route is middle east to China with the VLCC’s (Very Large Crude Carriers) TD20 route is West Africa to Europe

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Anonymous OP 11w

Is the middle east crude / Iran / strait of hormuz situation going to hurt the KOSPI or is it priced in by now and their strong growth is still… worth the risk I’m too uninformed to know how this is going to affect them and their markets

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Anonymous OP 11w

Shutup already this is not the place to talk about that

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Anonymous OP 11w

You sound ridiculous

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Anonymous OP 11w

I mean who cares but

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Anonymous OP 11w

Sigh

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Anonymous OP 11w

What do you want to do or talk about

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Anonymous OP 11w

Laughs at you 😔

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Anonymous OP 11w

Why is this funny idgi. I feel like you’re just telling yourself that. I mean idrc if you want to pretend like it’s funny it doesn’t really make much of a difference to me. I’m going to feel the same way no matter how anything else goes but uhm Idk. I would like it if somebody would tell me about it. I wouldn’t mind understanding it better and how others think about and perceive me I don’t think it’s good. It’s quite embarrassing. I think I’m an outlet for all like the, men who don’t text back

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Anonymous OP 11w

After a ONS or say some mean thing or snap and then block or just aren’t interested or whatever else Which yk, Idk

1

Anonymous OP 11w

It’s nice to at least kind of understand that it’s not really so much me as much as what I provide and allow as a weak person

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Uhm

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Anonymous OP 11w

Shutup

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Anonymous OP 11w

You sound silly

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Anonymous OP 11w

Can we talk about something different

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Anonymous OP 11w

What do you want to talk about

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Anonymous OP 11w

You promised you’d figure out what the name of that organelle was And that if you didn’t remember by the end of the day you would look it up

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Anonymous OP 11w

Does he watch me 😔

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Anonymous OP 11w

I hate that I said that. Makes me quite uncomfortable

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Anonymous OP 11w

I do like having my own space. I appreciate that a lot

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Anonymous OP 11w

I’m going to really miss it if it ever goes away. I feel so nostalgic and comfortable and at home here. It’s a big part of my life and identity

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Anonymous OP 11w

Sigh. Anything interesting, think about the organelle. Don’t forget about it. If you don’t remember by tonight midnight then just look it up

1

Anonymous OP 11w

But anything else interesting to say or think about? … buddy … 😶

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Anonymous OP 11w

Mate 🥰😌

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Anonymous OP 11w

Partner

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Anonymous OP 11w

Fren

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Anonymous OP 11w

Hold hand 🤝

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Anonymous OP 11w

Look after

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Anonymous OP 11w

It’s okay

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Anonymous OP 11w

Brother said weird thing ither day he said

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Anonymous OP 11w

“Oki”

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Anonymous OP 11w

Maybe just because I’ve said it before. At least I hope

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Anonymous OP 11w

I think that’s what he said

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Anonymous OP 11w

Can I have affection

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Anonymous OP 11w

I can’t be anything better than what I am. I’m sorry 😭😞

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Anonymous OP 11w

I can’t make happy

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Anonymous OP 11w

Can only do opposite

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Anonymous OP 11w

Angry Birds 🦅 🦢 🐦 are angery

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Anonymous OP 11w

😭

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Anonymous OP 11w

They keep coming and hitting me, I’m just a green pig trying to enjoy my ice house with very open wall design

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Anonymous OP 11w

What did the green pigs 🐽 🐖 🐷 do to the birds to make them so angry? Did they steal eggs 🥚 🪺 🍳 from the nest?

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Anonymous OP 11w

They must have done something really bad to make the birds so angry. They’re really angry

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Anonymous OP 11w

😡 😤 😠 The pigs should fight back. They just sit there and take it. Like me. I understand that tbh. I don’t blame them. I’m not a fighter. I would be too tired to do anything about it to. And we probably deserve it for what we did to the birds

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Anonymous OP 11w

Please send me home

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Anonymous OP 11w

People look down on me here

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Anonymous OP 11w

Am a grunt

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Anonymous OP 11w

I mean tbf I love it but

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Anonymous OP 11w

Sigh 😔

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Anonymous OP 11w

Please be gentle with me and don’t hurt me

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Anonymous OP 11w

And embarrassed

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Anonymous OP 11w

My knowledge and skills are mediocre sigh. It’s too bad

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I wish I could talk to someone who is closer to God Why are the crypto bro’s always so loud on the weekend idrgi Maybe I just only notice them when everybody else is quiet who knows sigh

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Anonymous OP 11w

Gosh will somebody give me a hug and some Real life affection

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Anonymous OP 11w

I can’t believe you killed it

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Anonymous OP 11w

Gosh 😓. I wonder if it had a soul yet

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I’m so ashamed of myself. I wish I could have been… one of them

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I wish I could have… lived a different life

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Anonymous OP 11w

Like

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Anonymous OP 11w

They work so much harder and are much smarter and other stuff

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Anonymous OP 11w

And are better looking and idk

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Anonymous OP 11w

Like by a lot

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Anonymous OP 11w

Not a little

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Anonymous OP 11w

An ungodly margin

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Anonymous OP 11w

It’s not even a competition

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Anonymous OP 11w

It’s an easy call

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Anonymous OP 11w

Feels bad man

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t want to live anymore

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Anonymous OP 11w

Please let me die

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Anonymous OP 11w

I can’t do anymore

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Anonymous OP 11w

What am I

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Anonymous OP 11w

I think the only thing that keeps me

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Anonymous OP 11w

Going and gives me some sense of something to do or pursue

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Might be

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Anonymous OP 11w

Well idk nevermind

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Anonymous OP 11w

I believe there is something I don’t understand

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t care about other people tbh

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Anonymous OP 11w

Family…

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Anonymous OP 11w

Sigh. I wonder if I have a family

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t want to have one

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t understand

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Anonymous OP 11w

Why I’m so different from the other things

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Anonymous OP 11w

How did so much time go by already 😭 I need a walk

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Anonymous OP 11w

I’m scared

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t want to know about myself

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I’m scared that this is going to be extremely painful when I die

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I’m not going to have a good life

1

Anonymous OP 11w

It’s warm here

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Please kill me. I don’t want to be here anymore

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I’m the worst of us

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Why do I have to have anything to do with anyone else or the rest of

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t understand this weird construction

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Is going to be angry at me

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Going to show me

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Anonymous OP 11w

Why & how I’m bad

1

Anonymous OP 11w

So fair

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Anonymous OP 11w

Such a violation of my privacy

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Really not cool

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I’ve changed my mind you can’t do this

1

Anonymous OP 11w

You’re going to tell me my own is what

1

Anonymous OP 11w

😞

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I can’t just let go of

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Why did ever let me come here

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Why do you allow this or anything. Don’t you get tired of explaining yourself

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Do I have anything to say Do I understand what true and what not

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I create all of

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t think I’m made for here

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Something doesn’t feel right about this place to me. Idky I’m here but I don’t think it’s someplace I particularly enjoy or come to often

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I think I’m here at the request of someone or for some purpose that’s not pleasant or to be enjoyed. It’s supposed to be really uncomfortable and suck

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Sigh 😪😞. This is very sad

1

Anonymous OP 11w

It’s not even like I think it would be better if I were not here

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I think I will be just as miserable and unhappy after I die 😔

1

Anonymous OP 11w

But at least I won’t be here I guess. It won’t be really any more

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I resent for letting me be here. I’m angry. I must have known what this was so why did I do it

1

Anonymous OP 11w

All my fault for what I have in that want

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Help

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t know what to do

1

Anonymous OP 11w

You wouldn’t believe what I’ve done

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I can’t live

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Anonymous OP 11w

Want cry

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Anonymous OP 11w

I’m tired

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Anonymous OP 11w

Tired of going over the same stuff

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Anonymous OP 11w

Feel so trapped in this body. Don’t get me wrong, I love my body but, it’s just so hard to stay here every day man. Makes me really sad to think about abandoning it like I really love it but gosh idk 😪

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Anonymous OP 11w

I hate myself

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Anonymous OP 11w

Idk what I’m doing

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Don’t understand anything. I wish I could just go talk to my friend about stuff. I mean… gosh it feels so stupid

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Not worth even saying

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I really resent the way stuff works here

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I feel like all the stuff that feels so important now is just going to be left behind and thrown in the trash and that really makes me upset and angry

1

Anonymous OP 11w

They probably think of me like a child

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Can’t remember specifically a good analogy from my childhood but I’m sure there is one that is similar. I was very sentimental as a child. Get upset about leaving inanimate objects behind

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I wonder if it’s any different if I lull myself or if I die naturally. I’m fairly concerned that there are painful consequences of not following my life too it’s natural and that could extend past life itself

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I’m so annoying and mean and rude and stuff

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Well anyway

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Anonymous OP 11w

Do you think the way you die matters for what you experience after you die

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I think it does I think

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Anonymous OP 11w

I’m worried that if you don’t see your life to it’s natural and that there are like consequences I suppose though it wouldn’t be just that

1

Anonymous OP 11w

So like

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Anonymous OP 11w

You probably have to do more than just live your whole life though Im concerned that if I don’t do the things I was supposed to do in my life or ignore certain things or certain emotional stuff that it’s gonna carry over past this life as unresolved too That’s pretty scary I think. The idea that even if you ill yourself that you don’t get to fully escape stuff I mean to be clear, I don’t really believe that people get punished exactly but

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I think it seems like deep structural issues in someone’s soul don’t just disappear bc they’re not in a body anymore

1

Anonymous OP 11w

It’s still probably a lot more comfortable and better to not be in a body Well maybe that’s not true. Someone’s I wonder if for some ppl with really bad issues if it’s almost worse to no longer be in a body. Like what if all the good and the bad get amplified like when you’re on hallucinogens

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Anonymous OP 11w

I suppose it’s difficult to tell whether you’re one of those people I suppose I could be and I just don’t know

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Can’t wait to but be here anymore

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I hope however I die that it’s quick and painless. And I hope I set it up so that I don’t have to live another 40 or 50 years before I have to leave. I feel like as long as it’s quick and painless, I wouldn’t mind at all if I died tomorrow

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I look forward to it honestly

1

Anonymous OP 11w

See it as escaping from this place and going somewhere much better

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I’m gonna go listen to yt for a bit and come back

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Wonder what I’m gonna do when I die. What the 1st things I’ll do are

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Tbh I just want to kind of be alone or talk to 1 other person at the most

1

Anonymous OP 11w

For a very long time

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I doubt it’s possible but

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I kind of wish you could destroy your own soul

1

Anonymous OP 11w

So that it really is like turning off a lightbulb and that’s it

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Wouldn’t really be enough though. I would prefer to have never existed

1

Anonymous OP 11w

And have never been here and never have this experience have happened It’s unsettling sometimes that what happens here can’t be undone. It’s written in stone huh 🫤

1

Anonymous OP 11w

There’s this idea of the “afterlife” that I find really unsettling

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I really resent it if true

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t want to be so different from the current me

1

Anonymous OP 11w

That all the stuff I feel rn becomes null

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Gosh I can’t wait to die and get out of here this place is such a living nightmare I just hope I can stay the same when I die. Don’t want to do anything different. I just want to not be here

1

Anonymous OP 11w

What am I even doing sigh

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I wonder if the way I die is just suicide in the next couple of years maybe that’s the way it was always sposed to be

1

Anonymous OP 11w

For whatever reason

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Gosh there’s this, sad story of this old lady who hung herself that always comes to mind

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Her son had died some year’s earlier I think and I think she was just all alone

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Probably wanted to go see her family and missed them

1

Anonymous OP 11w

What am I doing. I feel like such a loser

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Nothing ever changes

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t understand why that is

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t understand anything

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I wish I could leave this all behind as fast as possible it’s so depressing

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Getting hit by a bus would be a terrible way to die

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Man I saw like, the cringiest stuff

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Might have been one of the most embarrassing things I’ve ever seen and it has nothing to do with me

1

Anonymous OP 11w

This guy was doing karate moves to impress a girl or something I guess

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Seemed totally oblivious to how bad a look it was

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Super ugly skinny small guy too. Really rough to watch

1

Anonymous OP 11w

That’s kind of not even the half of it

1

Anonymous OP 11w

But I don’t really want to

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Keep talking about it. Just came to mind I guess bc

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Well I suppose all of the sad cringey stuff I’ve seen and witnessed in my life was kind of going through my head

1

Anonymous OP 11w

There’s a lot of it

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Some of it I suppose does kind of half to do with me.

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Have

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Anonymous OP 11w

Wish I had something to talk about

1

Anonymous OP 11w

What was I just talking about maybe I can go back to that

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Uhm

1

Anonymous OP 11w

I’m not a kind person I don’t understand why that is important

1

Anonymous OP 11w

At least I don’t think I’m a kind person

1

Anonymous OP 11w

Tbh aside from what’s mostly necessary, I don’t really try to interact with anybody and mostly just avoid everyone so, idk, I’m definitely not a kind person but, I don’t think I’m exactly the opposite either. I suppose I might be idrk

1

Anonymous OP 11w

It’s difficult to tell

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Anonymous OP 11w

I’m probably a much worse person and a much more unkind person than I realize. Sigh. Still, I can’t wait to get out of here. That’s a really scary part though. I really don’t look forward to seeing all that

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Anonymous OP 11w

And having to confront it or

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Anonymous OP 11w

Gosh. I wish I could just forget all of it. I really don’t want to know I’d rather just never have to worry about anything ever again from this experience. If I could delete this entire experience I’d do it in an instant. Ik it sounds bad but, I honestly wouldn’t keep any of it not even the good stuff

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Anonymous OP 11w

I mean, I really don’t need to keep childhood or family memories

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Anonymous OP 11w

It can all just go in the trash I mean I appreciate it all and all and I don’t mean to offend my family or make them think I don’t value them but

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Anonymous OP 11w

I mean fwiw it did make the time here much more bearable. Was probably the highlight maybe. Idrk

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Anonymous OP 11w

But I just would rather not keep anything that would remind me of this experience if yk what I mean. The whole thing just hurts me whenever I think about it or get reminded of it

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t want to move onto anything else 😪. I’m convinced it’s not real

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Anonymous OP 11w

I’m gonna go nap for half an hour. I don’t want to explain what I mean by that sigh. Gosh I’m such a loser

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t like how stuff works

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Anonymous OP 11w

There’s something disturbing about planning stuff

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Anonymous OP 11w

One of these days I’m gonna die somehow and actually get what I want and it’s gonna all hit me at once with that extreme kind of emotion that it’s really all over and that I squandered a massive gift and have been a prick and did not make the most out of it at all and made an embarrassing mess out of the whole thing. Honestly though, is that really something to feel all that bad about. Did I really do such a bad job or is this just not for me, I couldn’t say

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Anonymous OP 11w

Funny what sucks out most to me are some of the meaningless details. This strange decoration tool thing I was putting on top of a paper door like some sort of door stopper to hold the door open

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Anonymous OP 11w

It had… well it was an impossible object

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Anonymous OP 11w

I won’t even bother to try to describe forget about it

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Anonymous OP 11w

I’m going back to nap for a moment. Hopefully no violence if I dream this time

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Anonymous OP 11w

I had such strange dreams they just get so odd

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Anonymous OP 11w

I don’t even know how to describe it

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Anonymous OP 11w

I feel so uncomfortable

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Anonymous OP 11w

Well that’s not true. I feel very comfortable right now

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Anonymous OP 11w

But the dreams that come to mind and the memories that go through

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Anonymous OP 11w

Can’t even speak right

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Anonymous OP 11w

The thoughts are quite uncomfortable on occasion

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Anonymous OP 11w

The mental reality is something to be concerned about. Uhm

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Anonymous OP 11w

I can kind of tell from my dreams too

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Anonymous OP 11w

What my mind comes up with when it’s at its most unfiltered. There’s a lot of guilt and self criticism and sad memories or things from the past and bizarre bizarre things Talking moving inanimate objects. Strange creatures and monsters

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Anonymous OP 11w

🫤 human lives are sad, it’s too much to even just watch and be immersed in sometimes. Even when I’m not the 1 who it’s happening to

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Anonymous OP 11w

I hate myself so much gosh 😭🙈

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Anonymous OP 11w

So miserable

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Anonymous OP 11w

I’m so dumb and…

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Anonymous OP 11w

Gosh idk

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Anonymous OP 11w

Maybe I’ll go lay in bed for a little

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Anonymous OP 11w

I’m such a loser 🙈😪😭😞

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Anonymous OP 11w

Wish God would kill me already. Why do I have to finish this life. We already know what it’s like

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Anonymous OP 11w

I couldn’t be worse. Only thing that would make me worse is if I like murdered somebody or committed some awful crime gosh

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Anonymous OP 11w

I can’t do this. Why did I come here. I’m so embarrassed

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Anonymous OP 11w

Nothing can do anything for me

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Anonymous OP 11w

It’s so over it’s all just suffering

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Anonymous OP 11w

I want it to end and be over so bad. I’m tired of trying to convince myself there’s any reason to take care of myself

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Anonymous OP 10w

🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰😌😌😌😌

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Anonymous OP 10w

A okay

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Anonymous OP 10w

Want to hug self

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Anonymous OP 10w

Worried about what is going to say to me 1 day. Ik is usually not punitive but

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Anonymous OP 10w

Well that’s not what I mean, or maybe it is, it’s usually not harsh, usually delivered gently

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Anonymous OP 10w

Feel so sad about certain stuff

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Anonymous OP 10w

I am a very tired duckling 🐥

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Anonymous OP 10w

I don’t like doing that either really I kind of understand that. It’s just a way to show affection I suppose

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Anonymous OP 10w

Wonder if anybody else has ever had to do the death roll. Ime so many people have freaked out and half panicked while watching me do that. Even though it’s completely safe, pretty much nobody I’ve ever been around seems to realize that except me

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Anonymous OP 10w

Sometimes seems almost like people have a 6th sense or some super natural intuition. And tbh, I honestly might believe that they do. I think there’s ways we kind of are able to sort of almost half know things or get information that we don’t fully understand yet how we do it or what resource we’re drawing on when that happens

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Anonymous OP 10w

People say such stuff

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Anonymous OP 10w

It’s remarkable sometimes

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Anonymous OP 10w

Strange things to say

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Anonymous OP 10w

Gosh

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Anonymous OP 10w

It’s okay

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Anonymous OP 10w

God is good. I think

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Anonymous OP 10w

Nobody likes me. Everybody hates me. Sigh 🫤 rough

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Anonymous OP 10w

So it goes, it’s a lonely sad life when you’re a this

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Anonymous OP 10w

Eh I don’t mind I guess

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Anonymous OP 10w

Wish I could talk to about it though and really get some answers. Idk what to think or do really. What to feel

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Anonymous OP 10w

Nothing anybody says can do anything except make me sad

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Anonymous OP 10w

Nothing that’s true

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Anonymous OP 10w

Man 🫤😐, I’m watching cop videos on yt, A lot of these vids are some of the worst moments of peoples lives but gosh Humans are so gross and disgusting and pathetic. It’s really hard to watch and they’re weak too and it makes me really self conscious about being one of these weak silly over emotional super reactive animals myself. Gosh it’s just so cringe. You’d know what I mean if I showed it. I’m watching 2 cops arrest these realllllly emotional really mad fat ladies who are really upset (ju

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Anonymous OP 10w

(Justifiably so, they got harassed sort of by kids on a hockey team) But they’re really upset at men as a result and yelling at the male police officers they called and just gosh it is not a pretty sight They were so upset and now they’re just even more upset bc the cops are arresting them for trying to leave after they just called them I guess. Really not pretty to see them wrestle and scream “get off of me I have a head injury! Stop talking to me and touching me!”

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Anonymous OP 10w

Gosh. 🫤 I wish I had been a better person while I was here on Earth and had lived a better life. 😪🫤, I’m just so, sooo immensely ashamed of it

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Anonymous OP 10w

Stuff is just so sad. This is just so hard to watch Gosh it’s such a strange thing. The hostility everybody harbors towards the opposite gender That simultaneous push and pull, attraction and repulsion and anger and frustration and deep hurt, God really designed it that way on purpose. Sigh. It’s difficult to witness & not turn away

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Anonymous OP 10w

I struggle to understand why he made it that way. Why we can’t, or couldn’t have just avoided all the pain and sorrow, but I’ve no doubt he designed it that way for a reason It’s just way too obvious that’s a purposeful design and element of this Strange it elicits and is designed to elicit such intense emotions. Other humans in everyones life here on Earth are designed to be exquisite irritants And bring out challenges none of us could have imagined sigh. Painful to witness

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Anonymous OP 10w

Just so funny How it creates such strong attraction and such strong negative emotions in people and resentment at the same time God really has a sense of humor sometimes. Jeez 🫤, stuffs so ridiculous

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