I’m so sorry you had to endure such pain from people who should have done better for you. You did nothing wrong to deserve such abuse, and your anger is justifiable! You are not a bad person for the way you feel about your parents; you are just someone who is so deeply hurt and betrayed by the people who should have loved you most. I hope and pray you can find a way out of that situation as soon as possible. Please keep taking care of yourself ❤️
I might get violent my thoughts get so crazy violent when they disrespect me and that is the opposite of who I am when I’m not around them. I’m always described as the sweetest, kindest girl out of the group and I am normally. I feel evil for feeling like this and Idk if I wanna scream or cry
Also, I highly suggest researching local agencies that can offer you emergency shelter and other resources to escape this awful environment. If you can, please consider getting some therapeutic intervention to help you grow beyond the hell you've had to endure. You are such a resilient and strong person. You are a good person, you are loved, you are strong, and you will overcome this in time.