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Confessions 5d
it’s so weird mentally to deal with the repercussions of not wanting to live for so long. now that i finally have the will to stay alive and take care of myself i’m dealing with the consequences of not caring what happened to me
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Anonymous 5d

the stigma of herpes is so much worse than the disease and it sometimes stresses me out thinking about trying to find a boyfriend or husband that’s ok with it, but then i remember why i was so careless and the fact that i’m even still here today and doing as well as i am is actually incredible and nothing to feel guilty about. it’s sad but it wasn’t my fault i didn’t have a life worth staying safe for. i was desperate for any possible good feeling and i shouldnt have been put in that position

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 5d

i’ve already had one boyfriend that didn’t care. but the way people talk about herpes you’d think it was super rare and everyone was getting tested… they’re not. like up to 1/6 people might have it. most just don’t know it bc they don’t test. yet ppl talk about it like it’s so horrible and disgusting and people get it bc of personal moral failure

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 5d

i just remind myself that someone’s life will be better with me in it. partly because of all the work i’ve had to do for myself to live and be healthy, and i hope i encounter that person before my time on this earth is up.

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