
it hurts even more now because i almost never open up to people. and to be hit with no comfort or any reaction was really hard. and she's still one of my closest friends but i just don't think i can be around her rn and i feel bad about that. she texted me to say sorry for the way she reacted but it still wasn't comforting my experience of the assault if that makes sense. i want someone to sit with me and understand and say it will be okay but im too scared to tell anyone else in person because
and i keep seeing what happened before i blacked out and i told her that too and she didn't fucking care or say anything. it was like i told her the most mundane thing and she responded in the most mundane way. and i want to forget but if i don't talk about it i cant. but now im too scared to tell anyone else