I wanted so fucking badly to be able to fix things. I was about to visit her. I asked th day she died before I knew if I could see her. She never saw it.

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i think it’s different when someone decides to bring kids into the world. that decision means your life is not only your own, you owe everything to your children. i’m so sorry you went through that. my parents had me in their 40s and then drank and smoked themselves to death and it felt like long, drawn out suicide. they owed it to me to keep themselves as healthy as possible because i needed them. i didn’t ask to be brought into the world

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