ok? im almost 30 i’m not a girl

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Anonymous OP 17w

Sounds like major depressive disorder, I would talk to a therapist.

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Anonymous #2 17w

i’ve had 2 therapists and neither of them helped me with anything, they just took thousands of dollars of my money bc it’s their job. where do i find the therapists that help?

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Anonymous #2 17w

i was just going to try to get ketamine therapy directly from the facility bc i don’t want to take antidepressants anyway. my bf attempted on them. i have autism, and i also meet the diagnostic criteria for borderline personality disorder. but i’m not understanding where i’m supposed to go to get any help. no one cares except when i’m paying their bills. i’ve thought about going to the psychiatric hospital bc idk how to get people to care about me

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Anonymous #2 17w

my bf works at the psychiatric hospital and i told him to help me make an appointment and he said “I’ve mentioned many times I’d like to help you see a psychiatrist”. he says it like i was stopping him from helping me??? i tell him every week i need help and i don’t want to be alive anymore🤧 hopefully something will come of it

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i have, i had emdr and talk therapy. there’s no modality that will help me. i need a parent more than i need a therapist tbh. my issues aren’t lack of therapy or medications. i just do not live a life that is worth living. people have even told me they’d end their own life if they had to live through what i have and it’s only gotten worse since then. no one in their right mind could live like this.

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my bf told me antidepressants are the only thing they’ll give me at the hospital so i’m feeling so incredibly hopeless and i don’t know where to turn. i’ve been trying to get better all my life and no one has ever helped me, they’ve only abused me and used me for money. my bf included. capitalism is the root of my issues and i can’t fix that alone, i can’t even escape it.

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i appreciate you taking the time to talk with me. i know it’s not a fun conversation. i’ll definitely try to keep more of an open mind when it comes to the meds, and i will mention tms. psych meds scare me so badly but so does feeling like this!

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