I totally understand that and I’ve been there but if I’m being honest with you. He never really loved you. It’s not you, it’s him because he never learned how to be a man. Though if I can promise you something…you’ll find love again. Heck it will be way better than before (I know but it’s true). Just for now, work on yourself, your womanhood. Take care of yourself in all aspects, and the man you never thought possible will find a way in your life :) stay strong have have courage