
My husband is bipolar and had tried to commit countless times in the five years we’ve been together. It’s hard. There’s been many times where I’ve wondered what it would be like to not be constantly worried that one day I’ll sleep through his messages and wake up to suicide note. Or that he won’t message me at all. It’s hard. It’s draining. And it sucks that they feel that leaving is the better option, but not everyone is meant to be a buoy for someone else to cling to, sometimes they’re barely
staying afloat themselves. So please, don’t get up in arms when someone leaves their partner for trying to commit. I know it is horrible and I know it messes up the person who did attempt so much, but please think about how the other person feels, think about living in constant fear, about the damage it does to their mental health. I have panic attacks when people tell me they feel useless because what if I can’t convince them they’re worthy of life and they die? I know how to keep my husband
alive, I’ve been one of his go to people to talk to for years, but I am still terrified that I’m going to lose him one day and it will be my fault for not seeing the signs soon enough. I know deep down that it won’t be my fault, but it also will. I should be able to help him. I do not blame any body for leaving a situation like this, it’s hard.