
Much* Sigh. Gosh Iām so bored. Maybe I should read a book. I want to get high. Iām so unbearably bored. I wish I could stay high for 48 hours and didnāt have such a need and desire to sleep and rest my brain do often. Gosh this is so weird. Wth am I even doing here I wonder. Like what is useful or beneficial to me about this. What progression is even occurring. Doesnāt feel like anything sigh š just seems like adversity for adversityās sake
Not that this isnāt interesting. Itās cool stuff itās just⦠well itās long and they actually interesting parts are few and far between and you never know when theyāre going to pop up and when there are going to be boring parts that arenāt exciting that just drone on and on and you have to pay attention to the whole thing kind of so You donāt miss anything important Well sort of. You donāt have to pay attention that hard. I kind of half listen sometimes. At least itās nowhere near as difficult
To listen to and follow along as some stuff where you have to be like fully attentive the entire time and thinking hard to follow along like certain stuff. Canāt miss a single sentence or not comprehend it or else youāre suddenly lost. Those are rough especially when you gotta keep reminding by 10 seconds or more Thank God you can do that idk what id do if some stuff were live and I couldnāt rewind at all. Gosh Idk how some people follow along without getting lost honestly. And some people
Kind of seems like, thereās very little point to what weāre doing. I wish I could get more direct answers. Seems like the responses I do get are rarely satisfying enough. Or lead to more questions that I canāt get the answer to Or even when I do get great answers that I can feel somewhat satisfied with, it doesnāt really change much. Life is still what it is. Just a boring slog. Something to wait through and wait out. That you donāt realize how much you appreciate and how precious it is to you
Certain things are so different in that way. Theyāre do different from a normal skill that you think you can just practice. Theyāre something you have to figure out thatās just this complete mystery For some of them sigh. Some things have a complete philosophy behind them. Some have done profound truth but almost no real information or⦠sigh idk
Yawn. Just a bit of a bummer when itās one of those things you can throw some time into and throw some more time into until youāve just made no progress at all I guess thatās a signal youāre doing something way wrong and need to switch up the method here and understanding of how exactly this technique is done
But itās odd and boring as all hell. I wonder if I suspect I probably wouldnāt feel much different if. I mean for a little while Iām sure Iād be quite interested and engaged and curious but, I imagine some of the same issues would arise. Or maybe not. Maybe since they have such a different way of communicating