genuinely, your best bet would be to remove those people out of your lives and find a new place to live. That’s your best bet to get hurt or have your future ruined. you’ll heal from the break up, and you’ll heal from losing your friends. nothing hurts more than holding on to something that wasn’t meant to stay. your frustration and valid and it’s valid to feel like the world is against you but it genuinely will get better. just believe in yourself and get out of the environment before it eats
-you. i lost my grandfather, got broken up with, moved apartments because my roommate was a dirty weirdo and didn’t know what boundaries meant and genuinely made my experience hell. i lost my financial aid, and my gpa is lower than hell. i felt like i was at my lowest and there was no going up and i was losing more people than gaining. though, there’s nothing wrong with being alone and starting over! you’re not alone and you’re strong! good luck with it all!