
In a nutshell… I’m fat and not very conventionally attractive, but I am very much so into extremely conventionally attractive men. And every time I do start talking to someone, I feel like I can’t be chill enough to be someone’s “talking phase” or whatever. I enjoy long, deep conversations and I feel like my energy cannot be matched on that. I talk so much (clearly) and I get like five words in response.
Realistically, I’m not sure. It’s a crapshoot. I think I’d still feel like my personality is too much, that I take things too seriously than most people are comfortable with. Though I do think it’d make my dating pool a little bigger and I’d have more confidence in myself, which would also boost my chances.