
Externally, I think I generally act like a good person and a good friend, but my inside, my impulses are always to do the selfish action, or to lie if it means the outcome is better for me, or to just express my frustrations. Especially about sex too, I’m internally very shallow and want what I want. It’s always a choice to be respectful, but it’s not necessarily what I feel. I know how I should act to be a good person, so I do, but internally I don’t feel the same way.