
I wish my brain worked like this, but fantasizing about it before we’re together is the only part I enjoy :/ it’s happened with everyone, even the person who I really really loved & who made me feel so safe. it arouses me and even feels intimate, but it makes me feel gross, and I dread it every time…
In fact, I actually get quite bored of it pretty easily believe it or not. It gets a bit tedious and I get disinterested if I don’t wait long enough in between or really try to get my testosterone up somehow. Girls with higher sex drives probably have testosterone levels that are on the far right extreme of the normal distribution. Like 80 th percentile + or something. I am just guessing, I don’t actually know the biology and whether that is true