The worst problem is that being at home with my mom makes me feel exhausted, being at my dads house forces me to mask constantly. Nobody will teach me how to drive, I’ve never been able to get a job because I’m always helping with my two younger siblings and then my parents told me to focus on college my freshman year, so now it’s summer and I’m feeling more depressed than ever, and feeling trapped, knowing I’ve lost access friends and freedom and that deep down, it’s all my fault.
That’s not much money. Do you have something you can sell? Anything you can do to earn the money? If nothing else, contact your school and let them know you’re struggling. I know someone who was going to a private college, on a scholarship that paid $25k a year towards the $50k annual tuition. One semester he was $4k short, exhausted all avenues and contacted the school. There may be funds or benefactors who help in just these situations. Anonymous donation, Dude graduated with honors.
If I don’t go back this fall, I lose a 20,000 dollar scholarship, which means if I don’t go back now, I don’t go back ever. I barely survive summer at home, I look forward to going back to school every year because I just enter a spiraling void during summer without a schedule or downtime. So I know if I go online for the rest of college, I’ll have to move out to stay alive. And my mom will be pissed because I’ve always been the one who was supposed to never leave her.
My husband is starting online classes this year and they’ve already told me that I’m welcome to move in, so that’s probably what will happen, even if this is finally the thing that snaps the thread with my mom. We’d be living off his minimum wage in a tiny house (literal tiny house, like the kind with one room and a loft) with five dogs but I’ll be applying for a job as a substitute teacher at the schools in town, we grew up there so they’ll be likely to hire me.