recursive
I can only make friends who also live in the dark, in that odd cathartic space. I dont do well in the bright “easy” places, But ill meet you at your worst moment and sit there with you in the dark. I just dont have that light inside me anymore.No? Im not? Im just a bit fucked up tbh and have trouble talking to people about anything besides heavy topics. I went out drinking with friends the other night and just felt like a dark stain in the room. They were all so full of joy and i just didnt know how to interact in that space anymore. I froze I felt super alone. Went home. Sat on a call with one of my friends who was mentally struggling for 2 hours and i was able to relate to that instead. It sucks.