I only had one friend in the past year and honestly I’d rather be alone and lonely than deal with people who feel entitled to me responding quickly when THEY want me to as if I don’t have my own life and maybe that makes me sound like a bad friend idc I’m tired of being the therapist friend and not getting the same energy back
It helps to pray and sign up for more things even if you’re doing it alone. It may not work out how you want it to, but there’s a chance. This happened to me recently. I prayed and went to a Christian conference. Got roomed with random girls. We ended up having so much in common to the point it was kinda crazy, we all shared deep stuff and laughed a ton together. First time I felt like I made real friends in years.
I used to be someone who had a real easy time making friends but I was narcissistically abused in a friendship in college. To the point I have a lot of trust issues and ptsd. I haven’t been able to easily connect with anyone since then. Usually what happens is that I’ll form an initial connection but if they start trying to get close to me, I’ll push it away. But meeting the girls at this conference was such an encouraging miracle I thank God for.