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Confessions 14w
it’s funny (not really) just how much “high functioning” depression can impact your life in a way that’s totally different from the more classical/stereotypical depression
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Anonymous 14w

I honestly don’t know if I’m still depressed. I feel strangely at peace with my dissatisfaction in life. Or maybe I’m just insanely good at compartmentalization.

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Anonymous 14w

all four years of university i was a “functioning” member of society in the sense i was going to classes, staying fed, showering, and turning in homework, but i was prone to fits of hysterical crying, i was self harming almost every other day, i was constantly self isolating, i had little to no aspirations or motivation to pursue anything, i had insomnia, and i was frequently struggling with suicidal ideation

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 14w

and i really only recently noticed what i was like every day. i feel like i’ve come out of a fugue state, or a coma. i have a job, i’ve applied to several volunteer positions, i’m planning on taking classes as a nondegree student, i’m planning future trips, and i’m moving in my first apartment in a few months. i still struggle a lot, but i’ve been clean from self harm for over a year and a half now, and i finally feel hopeful & energized about my future. it’s really CUHHHRAZYYY

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Anonymous replying to -> #1 14w

LOL i have the same thought sometimes. like am i *really* happy or just accepting of my circumstances. i’ll take whatever this is over crashing out over the smallest things though 💀😭

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 14w

Believe me though sometimes it hits me out of nowhere and I’m like why am I crying 😂

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