the tears stop and i can feel how much im holding in and how badly i want to cry, but my badly won’t let me do it when im arguing with her. during our argument just now, she said i had fake tears and i always fake crying and i make smart ass faces and i shut her out. i tried to explain idk why it happens but i dissociate during our arguments and she thought i was making it up lol. i finally figured out what happens to me when we argue like this and i try to explain it, and she ridicules me