i lost my mom a year ago to cancer, you can dm me to talk more about what’s going on if you want to. i didn’t have anyone who went through what i was dealing with and there was a lot i was just mixed up on. when my mom was diagnosed, she seemed like she didn’t cared. she worked non stop, even after she started having strokes and did not stop until she was pretty fair along. but honestly, she was trying to keep herself distracted from what was happening. but in our last conversation we both knew
and she wasn’t scared anymore, but she was in a state of just love. i think she was at peace, grieving before grief is its own process. this was just my experience, my mom was a unique one but your dad may be doing the same distracting or hiding from the fear. i’ve had moments where i was sure the end was near and that feeling is poisonous for just those moments, let alone to walk around with 24/7. my mom used distractions to get through the fear