i feel you :(( after move in, my college did a thing where families lined up along one of our main walkways on campus and cheered as our class walked through and no one was there to cheer for me, i'm now a junior and i will say it's a constant battle of resentment and forgiveness with my family but also learning to build a strong support system for myself that i chose and not letting having shitty parents/childhood trauma hold me back from living a life of fulfillment and happiness