bc like that’s so much weight. i was carrying so much weight from the moment i was old enough to think and i begged and pleaded to the christian god as a child to speak to me, to show me the smallest of signs, to offer some tiny morsel of comfort and i never felt connection nor comfort nor presence at all and so i kept begging to deaf ears until finally i just gave up. now i’m a much happier pagan, but remembering the child i was breaks my heart.