i am unlearning my emotional avoidance i got from both my parents and their church (pastor’s kid here, hi) and i realize just how fucking pissed off it makes me that my parents just rolled over under the weight of their own shit and were a unique sort of neglectful that looked pretty deep enough to give me the shit soldiers have and the more i unlearn and see how bad they are its like ow bc i love them. BUT I HATE THEM