
3/4 weeks ago he hit me up out thr blue after we spent months sending reels back and forth for no apparent reason. I had to decline, I hit him up the next day to go to a bar. Apparently he doesn’t drink but we had chatted till 2 am. Still, wanted to go out, and took me around on his bike
He invited me out to his place simply to meet his many many dogs. Just hung out there for a few hours. Went on another bike ride, no back hitch so I’ve literally been hugging and backpacking this man. Makes a joke how he is my personal chauffeur even when I have never requested to go anywhere.
Today we go volunteering, smth he suggested. Also have tentative plans to go hiking at least twice, different parks. And tn we went to a race track. Never been so why not. He pays for it all. It rained hard. Takes his jacket and lets us both sit on it. Space, but then the space closed and we’re shoulder to shoulder bumping elbows. I didn’t mind I was cold asf. Makes some jokes, breaks the touch barrier again like previous nights. Says like “oh dw I’d save you” “I’ll put you as a beneficiary”
“Ik cpr” many times. “Oh if my bike flipped if grab you dw” like okay laws of physics don’t apply here sure guy. Rains again, I wipe my area and he takes off his jacket again as it is still drizzling and i wanted him to stay warm and dryer- “I guess chivalry is dead huh” suggests we go back and watch a movie. No movie, he was past his bed time fr and took his meds. So sleep is SOON. Lets me stay a bit longer as the rain clears up. Rest of all the time between to me imo is friendly banter
But made a joke and showed how my weight is basically his warm up and wanted to pick me up, again jokingly. But points out a few things during the races and would grab my arm or put his arms around me to play into a bit. I’m very very confused here. Is its friendly? Is it nervousness? Is it flirting? How do I go abt this wo ruining a good thing going for whatever this is and find a solid answer w no direct asking
Follow up…. What do you suggest. I have made a pact to myself after my ex that I wouldn’t lead a relationship. As in making the first moves or admitting anything as I always have. A girl just knows what she wants but as of now, I don’t want to be the main lead any more. I would personally like to not ‘be a man’ thro this experience this time